On to the Next One

......now playing "Its Over" by John Legend ft Kanye

What does it mean to find the one? Apparently it means that once you befriend someone, that friendship must evolve into a relationship, and that relationship has to be successful or anything between you and that individual will mean nothing and what you all had was meaningless. At least thats the definition the last person I dated had for it. One thing that really bothers me is when people do spiteful things to people close to them. I dated somone for three months and before that we were close friends. I could write a whole new post on just the dynamics of how heated and savage a female can get when you use the word friend at the wrong time around them when in most cases that word is simply the most convenient when you're not dating. Personally, I'd rather not even use labels until the two of us officially date to avoid that problem altogether. Going back prior to my rant, my point was that I had a lot of time, effort, energy, and feelings invested in someone as a friend and that friendship became a relationship. Now I'd be in the wrong if I didn't openly admit that us dating in the first place wasn't foolish on my part because I knew that she and I were two different people. I knew that there were certain things we both couldn't understand about each other. With that said, I entered a relationship with her based off my attraction to her and the feeling that I was missing something I couldn't see in my life and that something was in front of me I just had to be open to it and give it a chance. Three months later......after arguments that habitually never got resolved I just wasn't happy. I was tired of repeatedly explaining myself to her. I ended up breaking it off. First time I've ever had to be the one to break things off and it was difficult. I just know I've never had to try to force anything to work and I felt like thats what I was doing.....forcing "us". So first month goes by.......no interaction b/t us whatsoever. Second month goes by no conversation. (I got a text congrats on graduating). Third month we slowly begin to be cordial with one another and move forward as adults. Beginning of this month......I get a text out the blue from her (3 weeks since we last even talked)...."You talk too fuckin' much....". When I read it I immediately thought about what I could've done to make her so suddenly upset.....I mean I don't go around talkin shit about anyone cuz I'm just not that guy. I text her back, "I'm not sure what you're upset about, but I don't appreciate the way you're going about letting me know you're mad when we can just talk about it." I still care about this girl so I can't fathom why she'd be like that for no reason. So she texts me back some dumb shit about knowing who my real friends are and some other shit and I get pissed. To this day I don't care to talk to this person, hear of her whereabouts, or really just care about her in general. She simply reminded me of why I broke up with her in the first place cuz dumb random shit like that text and her general craziness from when we dated make me feel good about my decision. On to the next one. By no means is this how I approach or condemn other people but when I feel like I'm taken for granted I lose respect for that person.